Little Wins

 Today, i contemplated taking a risk for once. Didnt take any. Just thought about it. I couldnt think of any to take.

I was at home all day, i tried to start a fire with my brother out of sticks bc hes trying to learn how to survive in the wild which got me thinking about the apocolypse. Particularly a zombie apocolypse because i watch way too much tv.

Ive decided i think rich people who can afford good security and resources would survive for a minute until electricity was no longer a given, and money became worthless, and they wouldnt have the survival skills beyond that.

Probably hunters, and farmers, people who know how to live off the land and own guns would survive the longest.

People in the medical industry, who have access to medicine and tranquilizers and speed (yknow, for the night shifts) might be able to last a while.

I think people who live in cities wouldnt last long on average because high population, and few natural resources just dont seem like a good combination to me for survival in an apocolyptic world.

But thats not important. Just something ive been thinking about today. Let me know if you have any thoughts on the matter.

Ive been rewatching star vs. The forces of evil because i have a passion for overanalyzing kids cartoons.

Ive done nothing all day.

I feel like shit.

But my cats been sleeping in my bed with me the whole time. That was nice.

I read like thirteen more pages of the book my friend wanted me to read. I cant wait to talk about it with her when im finished six months from now.

I tried making a daily mantra, but its too long, and im not sure which parts to keep. This is what i have: "this will end. Just keep swimming. You might as well just get through it. Every action takes self control, so make the choice to hold values that allow for self control to be a positive thing. Success over comfort. Later over now. Take a risk. Take the risk."

Its occured to me it almost seems more risky to worry more about your unpromised future than your happiness in the moment. I guess its just a matter of actually living in the moment, instead of bed rotting all day contemplating how one lives life to its fullest while they have the chance.

But i went outside today.

And for a few minutes i opted for brain food instead of background noise...

And my cat left the bed when i left even though my blanket is heated and he came back when i came back.

And i got to spend time with my brother.

And my plants are doing really good.

And even though this was a yesterday thing, i cleaned my room, so now my room is clean. My bedsheets are freshly washed.

So yeah. Life is full of little wins. Massive fails too, like i wasted my whole day, but hey... it depends on how you look at it ;) opt for optimism guys 😎👉👉 (i hope this emoji sequence made sense, its like what luz and lilith did towards the end of that one episode with the time portal thingies in the owl house?)

Well wishes fellow couch potatoes!

Fuck everyone else.

Bitchless forever, Bill <3

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