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Idgaf what weve "proven", people dont get to tell me what to believe. because i feel like everyone acts like youre an idiot for believing in astrology, and while, yeah, im sure its full of bullshit, their version isnt any better. I dont, for a second, believe in the shit other earthlings who like just now got to earths moon, tell me about other planets and stars lightyears away. Like, bitch have you ever been to that planet? No. So then how can you tell me what gravitys like there? How do you know its made of this element we have on earth just from what it looks like when, for all we know, if you actually get close it could literally be trillions of microscopic little bugs forming that whole planet? It could have entirely different properties and be an entirely different thing we as born and raised earthlings couldnt begin to comprehend. But we just assume we know, because scientists tell us, when all theyre really telling us is their best guess, which can not be that accurat...

I like to pretend people are scared of me... like i intimdate them with just a look or something. I know when people tell me i scare them theyre joking, but i still brag about it. I guess i just like to feel like i cant be fucked with, or like people respect me enough to know not to. Very much not the case though, because if it were they wouldnt keep doing it. People say hurtful things and then apologize profusely like they think im gonna hurt them, or at least thats how i like to think about it, but i know its actually that they think they hurt me. I keep thinking about how fucked up i am, and then cringing because when i phrase it that way it makes it sound like i think im traumatized or edgy or some shit, when by fucked up i just mean i feel like i wasnt built right. I finally found a better word. Im a botched person. #bleh

Fuuuuuck, holy fucking shit you guys my life is not cool enough!!!! I do nothing! I do nothing and i dont know what to do about it! Ive always wanted to be a main character but that movie would have such horrible reviews. Holy shit. I dont know what to do because how the hell do i make my life more cinematic when i cant cut out the boring parts and i never do anything dramatic enough to feel like fiction?! This kind of ties back to that thing about how i need to take a risk... On top of that i need more follow through. I wish my life could have a soundtrack, and ive made plenty, but unfortunately thats not the same thing. I dont want to be watched, i just want to be watchable. I saw this guy i cant decide how to feel about on spotlight (tik tok is too slow and ruins music, and i made the mistake of following too many cat accounts on instagram so now thats all i see on reels) and he said he tells his kids when they say theyre bored "then youre being boring." Or something, whic...