So, apparently im not interesting enough to post once a week, so ive been a bit absent recently due to lack of content and ideas...
Honestly the best thing i can usually do is just start writing something and eventually, as i write down my stream of conciousnous i start to fixate on something and then rant about that.
I think it helps as someone with depression to clean when i feel good because it helps me feel good for longer so im more likely to do other things i need to do.
But thats not to say were only valuable if were producing something, i just mean that there are things we neglect that we might even like doing that we probably should be doing, that we could do if we felt good enough to do it, but since we often dont, it often does not get done.
While i personally dont think any of us really matter as much as we think we do, i also think that its possible were basically part of an organism thats basically busy taking care of another part of its body or, like me, too tired to take care of itself, and if that is the case, i think it would be really great of us, as its cells, to use the recources it tries to provide us more wisely, and to take care of ourselves so it can feel healthy and be able to give us back more when it feels good again.
Im not saying that definetely is whats happening, but its something that often motivates me to treat myself and other "cells" better.
Another fun theory, were characters in a book, so really, nothing does exist outside of what we are experiencing, because our experiences are really just what the reader is imagining.
I like that one because it means that a. Were probably simple compared to whatever is reading us, because when we read its hard to imagine everything in perfect detail down to the atom, so it probably isnt doing that, if its anyhing like us, and it probably is, because humans like to write from a humanized perspective, so our perspectives would probably be at least somewhat like theirs.
Mean maybe not though, idk.
Shit, we also write about aliens and stuff, but ofc, those aliens still need to be speaking english for us to understand what theyre saying right?
Anyway, b. It means that our story has an ending, and our "god" or "author" does, in fact, have a plan for us. And if they are anything like humans, well, its probably gonna be a happy ending.
So.... i guess religion really does help, and i guess i can see why.
Faith still blows my mind in most forms.
But i appreciate it nonetheless.
Anyway, as i was saying: i apologize for my absence, and ill try to start writing more bullshit to eventually turn into a somewhat coherent and more mono topic little crisis for you to have with me.
While i cant prove that it matters, i really think you shouldnt push people off cliffs. However, i can not tell you what to do, and if youre strong enough, you can do whatever you want, because as they say, survival of the fittest.
Questing reality again, Billie
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