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 Usually I post around Thursdayish's, but i wont be posting this thursdayish because i have decided to unplug for a minute, just to see how it affects my mood and stuff. Plus it wouldnt hurt to go outside or, practice self contr, or learn how to entertain myself or be creative for a few minutes. Ill probably still make the musicish monday #4 post, unless i decide i dont like the playlist i made in advance because ive been debating it for the past three weeks since i made it and wont have access to my spotify in order to figure out a better one. Either way, ill be back, probably, almost certainly. Im very week. So. Like, probably dont chew on chords that are plugged into appliances that are actively being used. - billie.

 Soundtraculous: makes you feel like a main character if you listen to them at the right times Way it goes - hippo campus This would be great if youre like driving down a long slightly curved country road on your way to the house you just moved into Turn it away - quarters of change Like if youre on your way to a club looking snazzy Close one - dlg. Classic montage song Heroes - david bowie Like the tunnel scene in " The Perks of Being a Wallflower " All black - good charlotte For when a bully whos rich and owns a cool car is approaching you to call you a chump and a loser Insomniac - memo boy I think the video pretty much sums it up Let me know if anyone has any requests for themes and or songs, im gonna run out eventually so this would be very helpful. I would advise against calling the cops when you get lonely - billie

 As dumb as this is, it still blows my mind that no one else can hear my thoughts. Its a cave and everything that gets let go just bounces around unless of course you create an opening, and i seem to just always create several openings instead of just letting myself sit with my thoughts for a few. So... Im gonna shut up for a minute. Dont say things you dont want people to hear unless youre ok with the potential risk of other people hearing it. -billie

 Alr... im just gonna have a quick lil midnight existential/midlife (if i die at like 40 like i plan on) chrisis... you can ignore me... Guys... what the fuck is wrong with me???? I do... Nothing. Im. so. Useless. I cant remember the last time ive learned something. I cant commit to anything, so i start shit i never finish and gain nothing from. My room is a fucking mess, i keep all my old decvices so one day, when i learn about computors and shit, i can do something with them... I convinced myself id learn by trial and error. What the hell is wrong with me??? I feel like im turning into a mix of my hoarder dad and my sibling who cant even get through a book. I feel so fucking stupid. Mind you, all of this started from the random burst of inspiration i got from watching that episode of Clarence where Clarence and Sumo got suspended, and then i realized i have no where to put that inspiration because i will never commit to anything i want to learn and none of it will ever serve anyo...

 Flowers in your hair by the lumineers is such a good song to dance like an idiot to in your room

 Ahhhhhh!!!! Holy fucking shit, everyone is so so fucking stupid its insane! Not literally, not everyone, but anyone who believes in time travel i think. Before we get into that im gonna point out, i can be stupid too. For the longest time i thought it was stupid to not believe in aliens because in our vast, possibly infinite universe , theres got to be more intelligent life than us somewhere, and believing thats impossible is just arrogant. But then only recently, i realize how fucking insane it is that we even exist in the first place, how highly coincidental that is. It seems highly unlikely that it would happen once, let alone multiple times. Its like if you have a circle, and a very very small portion of it is shaded in, and you throw a rock, and it lands in thar shaded portion, its even less likely that youre gonna get it in there again, even if youre aiming for it (cause rocks bounce).  And the universe isnt aiming for shit, so thats fucking crazy that even we exist...

 - Leave - whirr - Blank - glare - Enough for you - wisp - Cherry waves - deftones - be quiet and drive (far away) - deftones - fade into you - mazzy star - Sextape - deftones - midnight - johny goth - your face - wisp

So, so far it seems I have twoish readers, and I’m wondering why the hell anyone reads this shit. Not that I’m complaining, just wondering. I think I need to redecorate my room. I haven’t since I was like 15. I still live with my mom, ignore that. But it needs more cool shit. It’s got a lot of shit in it, but I think it would be cooler with better shit. Like I’ve bulked, and now I think I mainly need to cut. I know this blog isn’t a home improvement channel, but it is a nothing-specific journal so it’s fine, deal with it. I have a lot of wall posters and paintings my siblings did. I have a hatchet hanging next to the jewelry I don’t wear and the weird card that says "Abigail" on it that my older brother got me for my birthday a couple years ago. I’m not sure why he got me that, my name isn’t Abigail, but I do really like it. I’ve got several books all over a very wobbly desk with two chairs I stole from the kitchen in front of it, and a bin full of random bullshit underneath....

 I know i post things exclusively to tumblr sometimes, but i dont remember what things I sometimes post things exclusively to blogger too Im gonna get a little more organized about that in the future, like ill post shorter things on tumblr and blogs on blogger. Tumblr link: @bitchlessbillie on Tumblr https://www.tumblr.com/bitchlessbillie