botched

I like to pretend people are scared of me... like i intimdate them with just a look or something.
I know when people tell me i scare them theyre joking, but i still brag about it.
I guess i just like to feel like i cant be fucked with, or like people respect me enough to know not to.
Very much not the case though, because if it were they wouldnt keep doing it.
People say hurtful things and then apologize profusely like they think im gonna hurt them, or at least thats how i like to think about it, but i know its actually that they think they hurt me.
I keep thinking about how fucked up i am, and then cringing because when i phrase it that way it makes it sound like i think im traumatized or edgy or some shit, when by fucked up i just mean i feel like i wasnt built right.
I finally found a better word.
Im a botched person.
#bleh

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