My daily mantra

 So, i think ive decided on a daily mantra:


Everything:

- ends

(I neednt worry as everything, no matter how bad, isnt permanent.

it may last a while, maybe even my whole life, but unless theres an afterlife, it should stop when i die, and quite possibly before then, should i tough it out.)


- i do takes self control

(Everything, no matter how easy, from getting out of bed in the morning to killing someone takes will, we cant move without forcing ourselves to.

We might as well force ourselves to move in the rightest directions possible)


- i do takes faith

(Leaving your house everyday can result in getting struck by lightning, or kidnapped and tortured and eventually brutally murdered, and the person who killed you might never be caught... 

its unlikely doing something that scares me will result in something this catastrophic.

I still leave the house everyday, despite that possibility.)


- is fine

(Nothing is just about me, in general, everything is fine, even though i might not be, and whatever bad things happen to and around me could be a mean to an end, or the path of least resistence. Maybe if i didnt slam my finger in the door, a bug in between the door and the frame would die.

im fine, but even if i werent, oh well, the world will carry on without me)


- is nothing

(In the grand scheme of things, i doubt any earthly matters are all that important.

Our mistakes will most likely only matter within the lifetimes of those theyve affected, and probably the lot of them will stop mattering long before those end, as long as we let them)


Trial and error.

Trust the process.

Just keep swimming.

(Two good things about myself)



Obviously, the explanations in the parentheses are not part of the mantra, that would be way too long.



And, ive decided on rules to deciding why i dont hate myself today:

- nothing about physical appearence that i dont have the ability to change in healthy ways

- nothing thats subjective in the way "i have good taste in music" is

- nothing that didnt take practice or some sort of personal effort, like for example, math is objective, and logical, so i cant take any credit or pride in being good at it (and yet im not)

Or like, as a better example, im pretty good at baking, but only when i use other peoples recipes, which means i really only have a talent for following instructions, which is all i can take credit for, not the cakes i make, if that makes sense.

- so i guess, to sum it up, nothing thats not my fault.


Today, i like that i want to improve as a person, and that im good at making cookies by eyeballing it, without a recipe.


Just bill being -bill

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