Daily goals

 My goal is to do at least one nice thing for someone everyday, learn something new everyday, do one thing that scares me everyday, and get at least (though preferably a lot more) 2000 steps in a day...

The steps have been easy, so im gonna bump that up to 3 thousand, and im gonna keep doing that until i regularly get like 8-15 thousand steps in a day.

But the other three have been hard...

I dont like research, it bores and frustrates me.

I dont like watching educational videos because i tend to usually crave more comfortable things.

I dont like watching shorts of any kind because i tend to doomscroll.

And i dont interact with people enough to do something nice... i guess probably it would be even nicer if i actually went out of my way to do it...

Huh...

Yeah, now that im thinking of it, thats not the problem.

I just dont know what nice things to do.

I know talking to people scares me, so if im doing something nice for a stranger, that probably counts for both, but i feel like i should still only count it as one.

I also feel like thats not enough.

One nice thing a day shouldnt be a goal, it should be a habbit...

I dont know what else scares me.

Failure i guess, but I kind of embody that.

Like im failing 100% of the time, as a failure, and a fuck up.

To be fair, im always worried. Im always stressed. So its not like im not putting my nervous system through enough...

Still... nothing i do is ever enough.

I gotta work on that.

If people could list acts of kindness i could do in the comments, that would be deeply appreciated.

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