My brother is really about to get me busted

my brother is really about to get me busted

i wake up wayyy to early to get ready for everything before everyone else does because we all have our own schedules to work around, and two of my siblings shower in the morning and that takes right up until i have to leave so i have to shower before them, and then i also need to make and drink coffee, and then also wait to make sure its digested all the way so i dont shit myself when i go to work or errands or whatever, and then i also have to brush my teeth and stuff and put on comfortable presentable clothes and get all my shit that im gonna need for the day, and so long story short i wake up at 2:30 am, and no one else is supposed to know that, but my brother does, because our walls are thin so i think my alarms are waking him up, and he asked me the other day why i was always up in the middle of the night in front of my mother and i was just like "that doesnt seem relavent" and changed thw subject.


It is... very relavent. Its half the reason i naver get anything done is cause im fucking tired, and i need to sleep but then i cant sleep when i actually need to sleep, and life just sucks, and im concerned, because like i said... i dont want anyone to know because thats fucking embaressing, and preventable to a degree. Its not reeeally, ive tried other ways, and forgot the one i used a few years ago to get around and stuff, but i think back then i showered at night, and maybe didnt even drink coffee in the morning, but i prefer not to do that anymore, i need the caffiene, i need to shower in the morning, so i need the caffiene even more.


Im really hoping i can get my shit together sometime soon so i can actually move out, wake up later, go to sleep when i want, and shower whenever i want, without the fear of being caught all the time.


This shit kinda sucks.


When youre doing the dishes i reccomend you do pots and pans first, because they tend to be the hardest to clean (at least in my experience) so you want the sponge as scrubby as possible, and the forks and knives last because they significally reduce the scrubbiness of the sponge.


Too booked for bitches, Billie

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